Wow! I am honored! Thank You Nimi for taking time out of your busy schedule to share in my journey! Joy shared your email with me. Thanks.
I apologize for not being able to understand some of the things in my blog. To be honest, there are times I don’t quite understand myself!

For those of you reading this, Nimi is CFO for Joy Dawn’s company.
 
Got up this a.m. about 7:00 a.m. I think I am going to have to try my CPAP machine again. I am just not sleeping through the night. Perhaps that’ll help. I think I will try it tonite. It doesn’t help, having flashes throughout the night. 
 
Went out to feed and damnit, “hershey squirts!” Hopefully it is a one time thing. I couldn’t get back to the house in time.  It doesn’t help, I guess, that I have been off my schedule the past 4-5 days. HA! That would be Vicki’s line, NEVER mine, til now. When Patricia was here, I ate different and it definately caught up with me. NOT blaming her, just got off.
 
I stopped by the fire station yesterday to talk to “Dart”, he is in charge of the EMT’s of the department. We got to talking about the medical I.D.’s and all. Anyhow, he brought up the “pink” fire truck that is travelling around. The guys wear pink bunker gear and they pull a 10 foot breast cancer ribbon on the back of a trailer.
The Marion FD is in need of some ‘positive” PR right now, so, we may see what we can do to get the truck here, possibly a representative from WINGS and maybe Leslie Mouton from KSAT to bring some awareness in our community. I’ll see who I can meet Saturday night at that benefit.
 
Dennis is having his back surgery tomorrow. As Vicki said, “It’s time.” He’s got a pretty severe case of spinal stenosis that has started to affect his legs. So, she is right, “It’s time.”  Keep the prayers headin’ to San Antonio starting tomorrow a.m. around 7:00. I need to put this on My Family for prayers!
 
Lets see if the charms that Toby got for me will show up!

 
09.09.08
Not sleeping too good tonite. It’s 3:57 a.m. and I am wide awake.
 
I talked to Suzi at the support group about my emotions toward the end of last week, and obviously NOW.  She said my lack of estrogen has caused that. The chemo hits the estrogen everywhere, from the pituitary gland to the fat cells, ‘everywhere!’ You’d think if the chemo can penetrate the fat cells and get the estrogen, it could also do a number on the fat as well! NOT!!!1
 
Oh! As I was pulling out of the parking lot of  CTRC last night, I realized I was without a headlight. I have not had reason to drive at night for a while now and I guess my right headlight died. So, off to the Ford place later this a.m. to get a new one. It’s lasted three years, I guess that is good.
 
I have to share this story from Sunday.
After I dropped Willie and Waylon off at Rio Cibolo for the benefit, Patricia and I both were starving! So, off to the nearest eatery, which happened to be a truck stop restaurant. Anyway, the waitress was a good life lesson for all! She was so positive! Had one of those “cute” accents. (She was from Memphis)
There were a couple of regulars in there and Patricia and myself. Anyway, by her talking to the regulars, you could tell she wasn’t from the area. So, when coming to check on us, I asked her what brought her to “our neck of the woods” so to speak. She proceded to tell the story of her daughter living with her father (down here) and her grades dropping. She indicated her daughter had always been an “A” student. So, she picked up her stuff and moved down here from Memphis in December. Her daughter is again, an “A” student. I asked where she lived and she is living in a trailer on the same property her husband and his new wife live. I stated I thought that was pretty amazing that they could all live that close to each other.
Not ever being a parent I thought her next comment was pretty profound. She said:
“Like I told my daughter’s father, We have to Love her  MORE than we dislike each other!” Boy, that spoke volumes with me! How neat to be able to look at things that way! Pretty interesting gal.
I found myself wanting to find her another job. She was a bookeeper for years. Until, however, she can find something else, she is waitressing ’cause she needs this money. Pretty admirable!
Something I also found interesting, I commented on her eyes. She has one brown and one blue eye. Really unusual. She thanked me for noticing, and told me in Memphis, she was a guys bookeeper for 10 years and he NEVER noticed that distinguishing feature. She said in Memphis noone looks anyone in the eyes. She noticed it was quite different down here.
 
Yoo Hoo! I Love my service guy at Bluebonnet Ford! I called him about my head light and he suggested I get it from Auto Zone or one of those places and he’ll get one of his guys to put it in! I think I’ll take him one of my dusty bottles of Bourbon!
 
Women Involved in Nurturing, Giving, Sharing: WINGS The benefit I am going to Saturday. That is what the acronym means.
 
I saved $140.00 today! I was so excited! Plus I saved a ‘dusty bottle of Bourbon’! I went to Auto Zone to get the head lamp. It was $8.99. The guy said he would put it on for me. He did and said, when your other one goes out, I’ll put it on too. So, I said, why don’t I go in and get another. I did and he put it on. It would have cost me $80.00 a piece at the dealership! Ya know, I think I will give him that bottle anyway. Look what he saved me!
 
Ran to Wal Mart after the lights and got the “last” of my pills for my “last” chemo on the 22nd! As I came out of the store it was kinda sprinkling. The further to my place I got, the wetter it was and the harder the rain came. So I got a good little down pour. I am thinking I need to go ahead and get feed and unload it before it really rains. Sounds like we are in for the rain. Sounds like Ike is going to let us know he’s around.
 
While in town to get feed, I ran into the Fire Chief and head of the EMT’s. I brought up my med bracelet and the cancer and the importance of ‘awareness’. We may get something going community wise to bring some awareness for this damn disease!
We’ll see what happens!